FILMED FOR FORGE TV: ON THE BEAT WITH REDFACES
i think a way for me to be happier in myself is to process past trauma. i never properly dealt with anything bad that’s happened because i never spoke about it at the time i went through it, e.g. when i was a child, because the people who should’ve protected me were the ones causing the pain. similar to recently, i went through a tough period of letting people wear me down and accepting it as what i deserved. because i wanted to keep people around. it was very naive of me, and i think we all have that streak in us. i assume that a symptom of childhood trauma is naivety – you experience traumatic events and normalise them so you become blissfully ignorant to other potentially awful situations because you’re scared of the abandonment and being alone.
images: Angel Olson, France, Andy Sawyer: 2017
in a sudden turn of events, for the first time in weeks, maybe even months, i actually feel genuinely fine? things are definitely not perfect at all, but i’m feeling o.k.a.y. so to end off the shittiest and lowest year of my life (no exaggeration, maybe i’ll talk about it in like 20 years), i want to share a playlist that’ll always put me in a good mood, maybe it will for other PULP fans toooo (cause we all fancy jarvis cocker a little bit don’t we ;p).
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images: soccer mommy – cool video: 2018, vevo
Sophie Allison AKA Soccer Mommy, is one of my favourite discoveries of 2018 (thnx Spotify). Lo-fi indie-pop doesn’t get any better than this.
“She’ll treat you like a fucking toy
She’ll break your heart and steal your joy, like a criminal”