blood under my belt – the drums

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๐Ÿ’˜ alvvays ๐Ÿ’˜

there was one song that i couldn’t stop listening to last year: flyte’s cover of archie, marry me. it was one of those songs that made falling in love with someone seem so easy despite having everything and everyone telling you the complete opposite. non-conformity and taking the piss out of people who get married young and do the typical ‘next-level’ stuff is what it appears alvvays is getting at. but archie and whoever wants to marry him in this song clearly go in a bit too deep, and marriage is actually the ‘next step.’

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joy affair

โ€œWhy would you try to chase it all away
If you never face it, howโ€™s it gonna go your way
You know this feeling doesnโ€™t tend to stay
So stop trying to force it all awayโ€

โ€“ย SUGARTHIEF โ€˜Joy Affairโ€™ย (2016)

Birmingham has produced some of my favourite bands, and SUGARTHIEF are another on the list.

you already know


for the first time in an extremely long time, i’ve started to feel at peace with myself and the things that i’ve been through. things that used to make me cry for hours on end, or upset me, seem to no longer have the same effect. even though i find those things sad all the same, they don’t make me feel like it’s the end of the world anymore. sometimes i have this weird intrusive thought, that a part of me shouldn’t be like this, as if i deserve to be sad, not as calm. that scares me, because it really does confirm that we are often our own worst enemy. perhaps i’m like this because i’ve been accustomed to the sadness. it’s something i’ve become comfortable with; accepting it as normal: but it’s not. all i’m trying to make out through this little paragraph of words is that even though i’m inherently a broken person, i’m starting to realise that it’s okay. and life really does go on, regardless of your flaws and imperfections. for me, it’s taken so much time just to get to this stage of being calm, and relatively relaxed. many years of pain, sadness, confusion. but even though this is one little cornerstone, i’m glad i’m finally on the right track to some semblance of stability. change has always been a quiet fear of mine, but now it doesn’t seem all so bad. i’ve had a few people who i could say have helped me realise things, but ultimately, the only person responsible for this is myself.

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